Our Little Miracle 

Here are the words we have waited so long to share WE ARE PREGNANT!! And better still…. Our baby was conceived naturally! 

On May 11th I felt like I was pre menstrual, it had been 28 days since my surgery and so I figured my period was coming. I felt shitty and laid on the couch feeling sorry for myself. 

My last period was on 22nd March 2016, I assumed a partial D&C done in surgery on day 24 of my cycle (April 14th) was the reason I didn’t get a period that month… Never in a million years did I suspect that I was pregnant! I had sore boobs for weeks , again I put it down to hormones post op. 

So when at 9:30pm on Wednesday May 11th my period still hadn’t come, I decided to do a home pregnancy test, don’t ask me why, I didn’t think I was pregnant but something deep inside me told me to test. 

I sat the test on the bathroom counter and decided to jump in the shower, as I was about to hop in, I glanced at the test and nearly fainted when I saw 2 strong lines! 😳 I looked at myself in the mirror, cried and just said “How?” 

• Literally 6 days earlier my gynaecologist had delivered the news that conceiving would be almost impossible – I blogged about it!, Mother’s Day was spent feeling sorry for myself wondering if I would ever be a mother… This prompted a very heartfelt discussion between Adam and I. After deep thought and conversation we agreed to give IVF 3 more goes, and if that didn’t work… We were done trying. We would rather be happy just the two of us forever than bankrupt ourselves pursuing a dream that may never come true. •

As I stood in the bathroom crying, I called Adam at work “Hi honey, so you know how I thought my period was due today… Well it’s not and I’m pregnant!” His response “Yeah Right! Send me proof!” 😂😂 he didn’t believe me – I didn’t believe it! When I sent him a photo he was shocked, called me to tell me to keep calm and that he would be home soon. 

I tested again, two perfect lines appeared on the test yet again, one thing was for sure… I was pregnant! 

I called my mum crying, she was more shocked than I was I think. Hearing her tell my StepDad was hilarious! 

The next call I made was to my Gyno! I had him paged at 10pm , I didn’t know what to do! He advised me to get bloods done first thing in the morning and get a dating scan. I was told to start Megafol (High Dosage Folic Acid), call Monash IVF and start Nick Lolatgis’ protocols immediately. he congratulated me and said to be in touch once I have results.

Adam got home from work a short time later and inspected the tests intently. I wish I recorded his face! 
We drove to the pharmacy a few suburbs away (still shaking and in a complete state of shock) that is open until midnight and bought the digital pregnancy test to determine how far along I was. When I did the test and it showed Pregnant 3 Weeks + I was even more shocked as that meant that I was pregnant when I had my surgery! 

Those Perfect Lines
We hugged and we cried and we hugged and we cried. We just laid in bed in silence with the biggest smiles on our faces. 

I think we slept 3 hours that night, we woke up early and went to my GP to get bloods done, I also got a referal for a dating scan. We did the scan that afternoon.  The lady who scanned me advised that i was already 6weeks5days pregnant ! My baby has a beautiful strong heartbeat and I am due 31st December 2016! Happy New Year! 

Ohh the tears we shed in that room! No words can truly describe the feeling, that moment we shared. When the lady left the room we gave each other the biggest bear hug and kiss. We are finally gonna be parents! And we did this all on our own! 

our first scan 6w5d

I called my gyno’s office and told him the news. I was then booked to see him the following week. I’m still in absolute shock at this point. I feel like we are dreaming! How can this be?

That night we went to see Adam’s parents to break the news, months ago I had wine labels made on Etsy – we were finally able to use them! We placed the wine on the bench and let them read it –  their reaction “You did it!” Followed by tears – lots of tears! 

Telling the Nonni to be
We asked Adam’s brother to come over after work and gave him  bottle too – his face was shocked! Probably similar to ours the night before. I love that I captured this photo of them. The boys are really twinning here with their matching tops ( and beards) haha 

Twinning it!
After speaking with Nick Lolatgis’ nursesOn Thursday 12th May,I was told to come in Friday 13th May to start my first Intralipids treatment , the nurses would have my scripts ready for all the meds I would need to start taking as a precaution to keep Bubs safe given my recent biopsy and blood results. 

Precaution Meds to ensure bubs stays safe
My daily routine would involve 6 tablets (2 steroids, 1 baby aspirin, 1 Megafol, 2 vitamin D & Calcium tablets) , 1  blood thinning injection and 2 pessaries. Until I am  13 weeks. 

On top if that, until week 15 I will need Intralipids IV fortnightly- it’s a soy/fat emulsion that is run into my veins via IV for 2 hours. I don’t fully understand the reason for it but from my understanding it is good for me and for Bubs and therefore I do it. 

8 Weeks 3 Days – heartbeat of 157 bpm
We had another scan at 8weeks3days for peace of mind, Bubs is growing perfect and heart beat is strong! Our hearts are so full! 

Saturday 14th May, week 7 – Morning Sickness begins – I never thought I would be so excited to vomit! I’m thankful that mostly its first thing in the morning and then I am fine for the day. I have had some nausea throughout the day occasionally but it’s such a good sign that I embraced it all! 

Boobs are still ohh so sore! And huge! 

My medications are giving me insomnia, that is the only part that I am hating as I work late and when it catches up with me, I’m truly exhausted. 

I’ll sleep 2-3 hours a night for 3 nights straight then sleep for 15 hours solid the next night. Again, all worth it ! 

We got referal for Percept/Harmony Scan and bloods from Stan (Obstetrician) 

And on Wednesday 8th June at approx 10:50am we heard the sweetest music of our lives. Our babies beating heart! 😍

The Sonographer congratulated us on a very strong and healthy looking baby. We made our 12 week scan appointment for Monday 20th June (Today – 12weeks2days)  

Our closest friends and supporters knew within a few days of us knowing. 

10Weeks 4Days – our little love

It’s so surreal to write this post, I have waited so long to be able to share with you all, I have had some incredible support along my journey. Women have opened up to me about their experiences and I am so grateful as you have all kept me going! 

I hope that our positive news gives hope to couples who are going through a struggle in trying to conceive, or have been given news by doctors that may have caused them to lose faith. 

We are proof that anything is possible! We have overcome 99% abnormal sperm, NK Cells, DQ Alpha Gene Match, MTHFR Gene, Endometriosis and managed to conceive naturally! Despite being told it couldn’t happen! 

Never Ever Give Up! It’s not an easy road but I can confirm that it is a road worth travelling! 

*I wrote this post when I was 11 weeks pregnant. Today ( day we are  sharing)  I am 12w2days, we now know that we are expecting a baby girl. Her due date is still showing as 31/12/16 and she is just perfect! We love her so much already and safe to say she will be her daddy’s little girl *

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Our Little Miracle 

Finally some answers

Yesterday, (Thursday 14th April 2016) I underwent a day procedure whereby they removed Endometriosis, performed a curette to biopsy for Natural Killer Cells (NK Cells). 

Just prior to theatre my Gynaecologist advised that some of my blood results had started to come through. 

 

Just some of the bloods taken for testing
 
My bloods show that I have AutoImmune Thyroiditis – also known as Hashimoto’s Disease. 

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My doctor has assured me that my thyroid is currently normal however I will need to continue to monitor it through annual blood tests. 

It is because of this diagnosis that my gynaecologist expects my biopsy will show that I do in fact have NK Cells,  but I am waiting for the official answer before thinking too much into it. 

 

Post Op Recovery with Nurse Adam
 
I have mixed emotions with my diagnosis, I am relieved that I have a potential answer (Hashimoto’s Disease is known to cause infertility) but at the same time I am disappointed that there is “something wrong with me”. 

My gynaecologist has assured me that my new Fertility Specialist will try to treat my condition and hopefully we will be able to overcome this hurdle. 

We have 5 weeks until our initial appointment with Monash IVF.

We are excited to move forward with our journey and have the surgery behind us. 

Thank You to everyone who continues to provide us with love and support. 

XXX 

Finally some answers

Ticking The Boxes

We have sent off our police checks last week. Victoria Police estimate 10 working days to have them returned. 2 hours of running around getting forms printed , documents certified and another $106 out of pocket!
I have to remind myself that it is all just part of the process, I still don’t agree with it but I don’t want to harp on it.

Today I had my specialist post operative appointment – has it seriously been 6.5 weeks since my surgery ???? 3 of 4 incisions has fully healed fully. The other is 90% there.
My specialist/Gyno has advised that there was/is a blockage with my right Fallopian Tube…. GREAT!
Beyond that though my uterus and reproductive system is in good shape going into IVF so that’s gotta be positive.

Our initial appointment with Melbourne IVF is over a month away! We were told it could be up to 4 months wait……. So as much as we are extremely anxious to start this process – We are very grateful that we won’t need to wait 4 months just to meet with them.

Given that our IVF specialist is considered one of the best in the business – it’s worth the wait.

I thought I would ask my specialist if the process started straight away…. He advised:
– No, there is mandatory counselling that both my husband and I will need to complete.
– There is also blood tests required for both of us to check for Hep A / Hep B

My Gyno – Stan Tsocanos talked to us for a few minutes about what kind of counselling they would do.
He advised it is a legal requirement of all IVF patients and effectively in place to cover Melbourne IVFs butt.
He advised they want to make sure we are mentally prepared for the invasive process that is ICSI IVF. As there are obvious risks of miscarriage and failed attempts for potentially years.

This got us thinking in the car on the way home. I couldn’t see how IVF is any less damaging to mental health than trying to conceive naturally and every 28 days being painfully reminded of yet another failed attempt.

Am I looking forward to daily injections of hormones that are possibly going to give me blurred vision, nausea, hot flushes, sore boobs? Hell No!
But I am looking forward to the eventual positive pregnancy test and first ultrasound, the sound of a babies heartbeat and the look on my husbands face when he finds out he is going to be a daddy. And that is what is going to get me through this. No matter how long it takes!

Based on all the testing / appointments and rigmarole involved – our first IVF attempt won’t likely occur until mid 2015.

Until then we will just continue enjoying each other’s company, go Gaga over cute baby things we see when out and about and my hubby will continue to keep rearranging our bedroom to see where we could best fit a bassinet 😂.

I love how excited he is to become a daddy
We started talking ultrasounds and trimesters, how long until we tell our parents and he said “I just got goosebumps!”

I know he wants this just as much as I do and as we continue this journey together it is only bringing us closer together and making us an even better team.

Thanks to everyone that continues to offer us their love and support.
To Adams mates that continue to call him and talk about it with him – I appreciate this more than you will ever know.
You would have worked out by now that he isn’t afraid to tell you about what is involved.

To my amazing mother and girlfriends – Thank you for continuing to let me ramble on or cry with you about what I’m feeling.

To my boss if you’re reading this – sorry for occasionally being a blubbery mess!

To fellow bloggers who have offered to pray for us – God Bless you beautiful people!

And finally, to my husband Adam – you’re so amazing and I love you more than I can ever express in words written or spoken. My love for you grows every day and I am so blessed to share this life with you.

– The Happy Wife 💋

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Ticking The Boxes

Our Journey Before IVF

I want to provide my followers with a bit of background of our journey to parenthood so far.

I previously mentioned that we started trying to conceive (ttc) in May 2014.
We were initially going to start in November 2013 but after discussion with our parents we agreed to get married first.

I would like to point out that we didn’t get married just because we wanted children.
We got married as a sign of our commitment to each other. We have so much love in our relationship and we wanted to celebrate it. It was the most amazing day and I am so glad we did it.

Our wedding was planned for July 2014. After discussions with my gynaecologist in November 2013 & January 2014 we started ttc asap.
The pain I was experiencing was intense! I ended up in the emergency room of the royal women’s on a Sunday night – and that was mid cycle!

The first 3 months of ttc was the lead up to our wedding. I had told my mother and mother in law that there is a possibility I would be pregnant on my wedding day. We were ok with that and they respected our decision. We had already delayed our initial “start” date by 6 months, we weren’t willing to wait any longer.

My experience of trying to fall pregnant is this….. It makes you fucking paranoid!!!!
Everytime I got a slight headache or upset tummy, I convinced myself I might be pregnant.
On 2 occasions in the last 9 months my body as tricked me and left me absolutely devas Continue reading “Our Journey Before IVF”

Our Journey Before IVF

But… Isn’t it supposed to be easy?

15 Months Ago, we first started seriously talking about babies. Its supposed to be easy isn’t it? Isn’t that what we have been “practicing” all of these years?

I’ve wanted to be a mum for as long as I can remember, I’ve never known any of the women in my family to suffer from fertility problems. So this news hit me hard!

At age 25, I was diagnosed with Endometriosis. After suffering excruciating period pain for my entire adult life, I finally listened to my girlfriends and saw a gynaecologist. He suggested laparoscopic surgery and within 12 days I was in theatre.

My doctor is one of the best in the business. He successfully removed my endometriosis and assured me I would feel better soon, i healed well and carried on life.

I just assumed that when 2 years later we decided we would like to start a family, it would just kind of happen…. Boy was I wrong!

In November 2013, we decided that after almost 10 years together and a 7 year engagement we should probably get married. We set a date – July 2014 and agreed that we should stop “not trying” to have a baby 3 months before our big day. I  was happy to be pregnant on my wedding day as I knew that with my endometriosis it might take us a while to fall pregnant naturally.

May 2014 – I stopped “the pill” and we had the mentality of whatever will be, will be..

In the past 8 months we have done so much! We opened a small business – Lucialina Pizzeria (June 2014) with my brother in law. We GOT MARRIED! (July 2014), Honeymoon (July 2014) & a spontaneous romantic Bali Holiday (October 2014). I had another Laparoscopic Surgery (December 2014) to remove endometriosis and a monster cyst that decided to call my left ovary home! My specialist also provided us with news that broke my heart… My husband was diagnosed with 99% abnormal sperm. Despite removing my endometriosis and being as fertile as I will ever be, we need to start IVF.

I cried all day when I heard the news. I felt for my husband as I knew just how much he would be hurting. Whilst he stayed strong for me, I know that it hurts him just as much as it hurts me.

The time has come for me to be strong for him. We have our first IVF meeting in a few weeks. And I have to admit – I’m shitting myself!!!!! But I want to be a mum more than anything in the world and I am willing to do whatever it takes. If that means I have to be poked and prodded then so be it.

I will continue to post our journey to Parenthood. It’s going to be an emotional ride but it’s going to be worth it.

I am so fortunate to have such an amazingly supportive husband to share my life with. He is my world and I feel so blessed to be his wife.

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But… Isn’t it supposed to be easy?