Late last week, we received a letter from our new Fertility Specialist to advise that he is taking leave and won’t be back in his practice until Mid June. As a result, our May 23rd Appointment has been cancelled.
By the time I got through to his receptionist to make another appointment, the first available time/date was Monday 1st August 2016.
When I first got the letter I thought “Mid June, not too bad I guess! Another 3 weeks to wait. Time will fly”
When I got off the phone to his office, I only had tears. 13 week!?! How can I possibly wait another 13 weeks just for an initial consultation?
So whilst the time may fly, how long will I be made to wait after this appointment?
August is such a busy month that transferring an embryo would just not be possible. As much as I want this, I want to be able to focus on it entirely. And August isn’t the right month to do it.
I don’t know if it’s the thought of waiting or not having my results until this point that is upsetting me. Either way, I have cried every day since receiving the letter.
August will bring us to 2.5 years of trying to conceive. It has taken 2 years to find out that we have more hurdles than initially thought.
When we started this journey, it was deemed ICSI would solve our infertility problem. 14 months, 3 full ICSI Stimulated Cycles, 7 transfers , 9 transferred embyros and $43,000 later .. Here we are.
Anxiously waiting to learn what our future IVF cycles have in store for us. How many more needles? How much more heartache? It’s the unknown that is hurting my heart.
91 days until we meet the man that will hopefully change our lives, until we learn if he can help us. If our hurdles can be treated… 91 long days!
One thing I do know for sure is being forced to wait has shown us just how badly we want this. There is no doubt in my mind that we are ready for parenthood. And we will appreciate it so much more than those to whom it come easily.
For they will never understand the pain that we have endured. They will never feel the heartache that is infertility. They have not shared the tears and held each other so tight for fear if you let go the other will fall apart!
Our Journey is making us stronger, every single day.
Between now and our appointment, we are gonna just focus on us. In July we celebrate our second wedding anniversary , I guess time really does fly!
At the end of August, we are off to Bali for 7 days…. Maybe it’s not such a bad thing that we have to wait until September/October to go back to IVF, at least this way we will be rested and will have had time off to soak up the information we learn on our initial consult with Dr Lolatgis.
Until Next Time