Only just the beginning…

I am currently 3 weeks and 1 day post op (Laparoscopy, Hysteroscopy, D&C). I have healed well and physically feeling great. 

4 weeks ago, Adam and I underwent blood tests – a lot of them! 

Well, the results are in….. And what we thought was a long hard road already travelled to get to where we are just got a whole lot longer, and a whole lot harder.

After calling every day to my gynaecologists office for answers, he finally called me back. I could tell from the tone of his voice that he was not delivering happy news. Our worst fears were confirmed 😔 Triple Threat of Immune/Genetic issues. 

I have mentioned in a previous post that I have been diagnosed with Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis. I thought that was bad enough, ohh how wrong I was! 

I have NK Cells , MTHFR Mutation Gene , Adam & I are also a DQ Alpha Gene Match – BOOM! Goodbye 2% chance of natural conception! Hello LIT treatments, Steroids, Blood Thinners, Intrepalids. 

Our IVF Journey until this point has been a fucking breeze compared to what we are about to face. 

At this point, I feel so deflated. Defeated almost. But I need to pick myself up and carry on. 

With Mothers Day only 2 days away, it is only yet another reminder of the difficulties we face. Needless to say, I am thankful we are working. 

We are both very anxious to speak to Dr Lolatgis, to better understand our chances of success. In the meantime there will be a lot of research! 

I have just purchased Dr Alan Beer’s Book – Is your body baby friendly, I am excited to read it and learn more about what lies ahead for us. 

As they say, what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger! 

Until Next Time 

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Only just the beginning…

Another Wait 

Late last week, we received a letter from our new Fertility Specialist to advise that he is taking leave and won’t be back in his practice until Mid June. As a result, our May 23rd Appointment has been cancelled.

By the time I got through to his receptionist to make another appointment, the first available time/date was Monday 1st August 2016. 

When I first got the letter I thought “Mid June, not too bad I guess! Another 3 weeks to wait. Time will fly” 

When I got off the phone to his office, I only had tears. 13 week!?! How can I possibly wait another 13 weeks just for an initial consultation? 

So whilst the time may fly, how long will I be made to wait after this appointment? 

August is such a busy month that transferring an embryo would just not be possible. As much as I want this, I want to be able to focus on it entirely. And August isn’t the right month to do it. 

I don’t know if it’s the thought of waiting or not having my results until this point that is upsetting me. Either way, I have cried every day since receiving the letter.

August will bring us to 2.5 years of trying to conceive. It has taken 2 years to find out that we have more hurdles than initially thought. 

When we started this journey, it was deemed ICSI would solve our infertility problem. 14 months, 3 full ICSI Stimulated Cycles, 7 transfers , 9 transferred embyros and $43,000 later .. Here we are. 

Anxiously waiting to learn what our future IVF cycles have in store for us. How many more needles? How much more heartache? It’s the unknown that is hurting my heart. 

91 days until we meet the man that will hopefully change our lives, until we learn if he can help us. If our hurdles can be treated… 91 long days! 


One thing I do know for sure is being forced to wait has shown us just how badly we want this. There is no doubt in my mind that we are ready for parenthood. And we will appreciate it so much more than those to whom it come easily. 

For they will never understand the pain that we have endured. They will never feel the heartache that is infertility. They have not shared the tears and held each other so tight for fear if you let go the other will fall apart! 

Our Journey is making us stronger, every single day.

Between now and our appointment, we are gonna just focus on us. In July we celebrate our second wedding anniversary , I guess time really does fly! 

At the end of August, we are off to Bali for 7 days…. Maybe it’s not such a bad thing that we have to wait until September/October to go back to IVF, at least this way we will be rested and will have had time off to soak up the information we learn on our initial consult with Dr Lolatgis. 

Until Next Time 

xxx 

Another Wait